it's been way too long.

Oh my! It has been waaaay too long since I've posted anything. Hmmm..let's see here. 


Since last week...not a ton has happened! I had my first biology test yesterday..it was hard. Well, not hard. but definitely not easy either. I think I did decent on it...I hope. Still haven't thought of a culture to do my speech on. I give it a week from Friday! I gotta get thinking. Friday I went home. It was wonderful. It was very nice to be able to sit on the couch and just RELAX and not have to worry about anything. Or be around a ton of people and what not. Saturday I came back to school and we did stuff with our brother unit! We went to this park, and then Yellow Springs (where I found $20 on the ground!) and then we went laser tagging and to cincy to this kid's house for a bonfire. Most stressful driving everrrr. We got lost several times, there were like five cars, the person leading was speedy gonzo, it was at night. It was just scary. But alot of fun for sure! Tonight is PRINTY WARS. We are wearing footie pajamas, my idea. It's gonna rewl. 


So I've been trying to really think hard about a major. And everyone keeps telling me I have time, but it's starting to get kindof stressful. I feel like I'm just floating around here with no purpose. Not just because I don't have a major, but also because I don't know what God wants me to do with my life and I don't feel like I have much of a purpose right now. But from talking with some great friends, someone said that maybe right now I am supposed to just be a good friend. and that even though I don't feel like I'm doing anything important and feel kind of lost, to remember all the people praying for me. Which really encouraged me. So I decided that even though I don't know a) what I want to do with my life and b) why I am here, I am gonna do whatever I am doing with everything I've got. Our RD sends out an e-mail every week based on the song "with everything." And I need to work at what I am doing, "with everything" that I have. So I am gonna work on it. 


but... I need some advice on a possible major. 
elementary education?
what do you think?
Could I be a teacher?? I have no idea. That's just an idea that has popped in my head and has really stuck there for some reason, so I assume that's for a reason.


Anyways, tonight me, elizabeth, becca, and emily are going to stay at Amy's house! We have day of prayer tomorrow, so no classes till 1! and I don't have any classes past 1, so I have NOTHING tomorrow! perfect! :)


love you all, cant wait to hear the advice on the major. 
thanks!
kbaaiii.

help me!

Okay so for my next speech I have to do it on a culture different than my own! Or a people group, religion, or cultural concept or practice! I have NO idea so far what I want to do it on. I was thinking gay/lesbians...but I didn't know how appropriate that would be. Then I thought maybe college athletes. But I don't feel like there's enough information on that...sooo now I have NO idea. If any of you have any good suggestions, PLZ lemme know! 


There will be another post later tonight, but right now I'm STUDYING. yay for college! (there you go, mom). 


kbai.

james 1:6

This is just a little thought I had last night while I was reading my Bible. I was reading James, and I got to James 1:6 and it says this "But when he asks [for wisdom] he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind." 
Once I get done with college (to the end of the dock) I will be thrown into the world (ocean), right? 
I realized that I can't have doubts about anything when I get to the end of my dock. If I do, I'll be blown and tossed about like a wave. The world will consume me in it's waves. I have to have faith in God that what I am doing when I get to the end of the dock, as long as its glorifying to Him, is the right thing. And that I'm getting on the right boat. 


I also realized, I can't walk to close to the edge of the dock while walking down to the end. I could easily fall off and be thrown into the ocean. Quitting school would throw me right into the ocean. Not doing God's will could throw me right into the ocean. I know that being here at Cedarville is what God wants me to do right now. And it feels good to at least know that (even though I don't know my major). 


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tonight is open dorms. yesssss. hahah.


also, COLTS PLAY SUNDAY. luv football season. 


that's all. 
kbyeee.

my life is like a dock.

So as I'm sitting here on my bed, looking at facebook, not wanting to do my homework, I started thinking.  I was looking at the background picture on my computer and decided that my life right now is like a dock. 

Right now I'm in college and I don't have a major. I have no idea what I want to do with my life or what I want to study. It's very hard to be motivated to do well in school, and study, and learn when I have no idea what I am studying for or what I am trying to learn.  That is how my life is like a dock. I can see the next four years and where I will be, Cedarville, but then it just stops. When my four years here is over I am going to be thrown into the crazy waves that is the world. It is very hard to see the next four years and nothing after that. It's almost like being able to remember up to a certain point in a movie and then forgetting how it ends. I have no idea what the Lord wants me to do. It's definitely scary. At the same time, it is kind of exciting to see my life as a dock. I can see where I am the next four years, but being thrown into the ocean will/could be fun! Jumping off a dock into the water is fun, right? 

Right now I'm just looking down at the end of the dock wondering what's down there for me and hoping when I jump into the ocean there will be a boat waiting for me. 

I know the Lord has great things in store for me, but as of now, I have NO idea what that is. I would love it if you all would pray for me in finding some answers for what God wants me to do with my life. I know I have some time, but its getting scary looking down that dock. 

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Other than that crazy stuff, school is going good! I fer realz love it here. I was thinking last night just how much I truly love it here. I know I picked the right school. And I'm very glad I did choose this school. 

I had my first college test today! Speech! Who gives a speech test? Apparently college does. Weird. I hope I did okay on it, I felt like I knew most of it! 

Kirk is 3 for 3 in eating with me once a week! (Kris, he told me to tell you that). He has met a couple of my friends and it's always an interesting lunch but I love it!

This past weekend almost everyone went home. The campus was veryyyy deserted. It was kind of nice though. Kris and Emma came over on monday and took me shopping! It was greattt! It was awesome to see them, I for sure have missed my mom. :)

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On another sort of serious note, I want to thank some people. 

First, Mom and Dad. I just was thinking today about the the fact that I have the opportunity to go to college. And I wanted to truly thank you for allowing me the chance to go to college. I know it will help me grow so much as a person and in Christ. Thank you so much for paying for me to go to college. I can't even imagine having to pay for college on my own and being in debt. I love you guys so much and am SO incredibly thankful for everything you have done for me in the past 18 (almost 19) years! love you both so much! :)

Second, Papa and Julie. Thank you for all the encouragement you've been giving me! Papa, It makes me so happy that you love to tell everyone that I am at Cedarville :) and Julie, I love hearing your supportive words telling me how great of a time I am going have here!

Third, Lauren (and Tyler). Thank you for all the advice you guys have given me so far! I can't imagine not having people so close to me to give me great advice about college. I know I can count on you both to help me, and I am truly thankful for that. 

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Well, that's all for now! Sorry for all the seriousness :)

love you all!