IT'S ALMOST FALL BREAK.

I am SO excited for fall break!


Wednesday! yayyy!


Okay so what's been going on here... let me think. 
Well, first I've made some great friends. I know I've said it a couple times, but I'm realizing now just truly how great they are and how blessed I am to have met the people I've met! Some of the girls in my unit are amazing girls and are SO fun to be with. We just goof off all the time... like the other night. Emily hid Kelsey's phone in the air vent while she was in the shower and set the alarm for 1 am. It was hilarious. And we all just hang out and laugh all the time. There's a couple other girls too that are super great and fun to be with and are just great girls. All the guys I've met too are just great. 


I'm about to go home for tonight and tomorrow to see Lauren! She's home for her fall break and so I'm going home to see herrrr. Can't wait! 


My fall break is Wednesday and I am SO SO SO excited. I want to be home so badly. I miss home. And good food. And my bed. And my family, and friends. I have been making two lists. The first is a giant list of things I need to get and bring back. Like my rain boots, long sleeved shirts, socks, and random other things like that. The second is a list of food I want Kris to make while I am home. (Oh, and my friend Michael is coming home with me over fall break). So we want delicious food. And Kris said she'd make some yummz food. Can't wait!! I'm gonna go sneak in the back of the school and visit Ambrose and some of the senior girls! And Emily of course. And then on thursday night some of us are going to dinner for my birthday! It's gonna be like old timez. Friday I am going down to Bloomington to see LIZZLE! and Lindsay Davis, me, Elizabeth, Lizzle, Tara, and Anna are going to dinner for Lindsay and I's birthdays! Then we are staying the night at IU and hangin out and saturday just hangin around. Sunday we are celebrating my 19th birthday! SO WEIRD. I'm sick of being 18, so I'm ready to be 19! I feel so OLD! creepy. 


I have one exam next week. Which is fine compared to Elizabeth, she has FOUR in three days! That's terrible! 


Hmmm..what else? 


What do you guys wanna hear about that's going on here at Cedarville?? Let me know!


Love you all! 
kbaaiii.

it's been way too long.

Oh my! It has been waaaay too long since I've posted anything. Hmmm..let's see here. 


Since last week...not a ton has happened! I had my first biology test yesterday..it was hard. Well, not hard. but definitely not easy either. I think I did decent on it...I hope. Still haven't thought of a culture to do my speech on. I give it a week from Friday! I gotta get thinking. Friday I went home. It was wonderful. It was very nice to be able to sit on the couch and just RELAX and not have to worry about anything. Or be around a ton of people and what not. Saturday I came back to school and we did stuff with our brother unit! We went to this park, and then Yellow Springs (where I found $20 on the ground!) and then we went laser tagging and to cincy to this kid's house for a bonfire. Most stressful driving everrrr. We got lost several times, there were like five cars, the person leading was speedy gonzo, it was at night. It was just scary. But alot of fun for sure! Tonight is PRINTY WARS. We are wearing footie pajamas, my idea. It's gonna rewl. 


So I've been trying to really think hard about a major. And everyone keeps telling me I have time, but it's starting to get kindof stressful. I feel like I'm just floating around here with no purpose. Not just because I don't have a major, but also because I don't know what God wants me to do with my life and I don't feel like I have much of a purpose right now. But from talking with some great friends, someone said that maybe right now I am supposed to just be a good friend. and that even though I don't feel like I'm doing anything important and feel kind of lost, to remember all the people praying for me. Which really encouraged me. So I decided that even though I don't know a) what I want to do with my life and b) why I am here, I am gonna do whatever I am doing with everything I've got. Our RD sends out an e-mail every week based on the song "with everything." And I need to work at what I am doing, "with everything" that I have. So I am gonna work on it. 


but... I need some advice on a possible major. 
elementary education?
what do you think?
Could I be a teacher?? I have no idea. That's just an idea that has popped in my head and has really stuck there for some reason, so I assume that's for a reason.


Anyways, tonight me, elizabeth, becca, and emily are going to stay at Amy's house! We have day of prayer tomorrow, so no classes till 1! and I don't have any classes past 1, so I have NOTHING tomorrow! perfect! :)


love you all, cant wait to hear the advice on the major. 
thanks!
kbaaiii.

help me!

Okay so for my next speech I have to do it on a culture different than my own! Or a people group, religion, or cultural concept or practice! I have NO idea so far what I want to do it on. I was thinking gay/lesbians...but I didn't know how appropriate that would be. Then I thought maybe college athletes. But I don't feel like there's enough information on that...sooo now I have NO idea. If any of you have any good suggestions, PLZ lemme know! 


There will be another post later tonight, but right now I'm STUDYING. yay for college! (there you go, mom). 


kbai.

james 1:6

This is just a little thought I had last night while I was reading my Bible. I was reading James, and I got to James 1:6 and it says this "But when he asks [for wisdom] he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind." 
Once I get done with college (to the end of the dock) I will be thrown into the world (ocean), right? 
I realized that I can't have doubts about anything when I get to the end of my dock. If I do, I'll be blown and tossed about like a wave. The world will consume me in it's waves. I have to have faith in God that what I am doing when I get to the end of the dock, as long as its glorifying to Him, is the right thing. And that I'm getting on the right boat. 


I also realized, I can't walk to close to the edge of the dock while walking down to the end. I could easily fall off and be thrown into the ocean. Quitting school would throw me right into the ocean. Not doing God's will could throw me right into the ocean. I know that being here at Cedarville is what God wants me to do right now. And it feels good to at least know that (even though I don't know my major). 


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tonight is open dorms. yesssss. hahah.


also, COLTS PLAY SUNDAY. luv football season. 


that's all. 
kbyeee.

my life is like a dock.

So as I'm sitting here on my bed, looking at facebook, not wanting to do my homework, I started thinking.  I was looking at the background picture on my computer and decided that my life right now is like a dock. 

Right now I'm in college and I don't have a major. I have no idea what I want to do with my life or what I want to study. It's very hard to be motivated to do well in school, and study, and learn when I have no idea what I am studying for or what I am trying to learn.  That is how my life is like a dock. I can see the next four years and where I will be, Cedarville, but then it just stops. When my four years here is over I am going to be thrown into the crazy waves that is the world. It is very hard to see the next four years and nothing after that. It's almost like being able to remember up to a certain point in a movie and then forgetting how it ends. I have no idea what the Lord wants me to do. It's definitely scary. At the same time, it is kind of exciting to see my life as a dock. I can see where I am the next four years, but being thrown into the ocean will/could be fun! Jumping off a dock into the water is fun, right? 

Right now I'm just looking down at the end of the dock wondering what's down there for me and hoping when I jump into the ocean there will be a boat waiting for me. 

I know the Lord has great things in store for me, but as of now, I have NO idea what that is. I would love it if you all would pray for me in finding some answers for what God wants me to do with my life. I know I have some time, but its getting scary looking down that dock. 

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Other than that crazy stuff, school is going good! I fer realz love it here. I was thinking last night just how much I truly love it here. I know I picked the right school. And I'm very glad I did choose this school. 

I had my first college test today! Speech! Who gives a speech test? Apparently college does. Weird. I hope I did okay on it, I felt like I knew most of it! 

Kirk is 3 for 3 in eating with me once a week! (Kris, he told me to tell you that). He has met a couple of my friends and it's always an interesting lunch but I love it!

This past weekend almost everyone went home. The campus was veryyyy deserted. It was kind of nice though. Kris and Emma came over on monday and took me shopping! It was greattt! It was awesome to see them, I for sure have missed my mom. :)

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On another sort of serious note, I want to thank some people. 

First, Mom and Dad. I just was thinking today about the the fact that I have the opportunity to go to college. And I wanted to truly thank you for allowing me the chance to go to college. I know it will help me grow so much as a person and in Christ. Thank you so much for paying for me to go to college. I can't even imagine having to pay for college on my own and being in debt. I love you guys so much and am SO incredibly thankful for everything you have done for me in the past 18 (almost 19) years! love you both so much! :)

Second, Papa and Julie. Thank you for all the encouragement you've been giving me! Papa, It makes me so happy that you love to tell everyone that I am at Cedarville :) and Julie, I love hearing your supportive words telling me how great of a time I am going have here!

Third, Lauren (and Tyler). Thank you for all the advice you guys have given me so far! I can't imagine not having people so close to me to give me great advice about college. I know I can count on you both to help me, and I am truly thankful for that. 

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Well, that's all for now! Sorry for all the seriousness :)

love you all!

love mah friendsss.

So I love making new friends. I thought I would hate it and be terrible at it, but I really love it. 


I've already met some people who I honestly think could end up being life long friends. The ones I feel that way about I feel like I've been friends with them forever. There's this girl Lindsay O'Neal and she went to Fishers high school...so weird I didn't know her till I came here and she lived like 20 minutes from me. Odd. 
She is really great and I already feel like I've been besties with her since like middle school. It's great. And there are a couple guys I just feel like I've known for a long time. It makes me feel so at home to have people like them already.



As much fun as making friends is, and I do love it, I still miss some of my old friends. It's very odd hearing other people from highschool talking about school...but being at a different school than me. It just doesn't feel right. I miss knowing everyone all the time... but at the same time, I love seeing new people every day and now finally starting to recognize people and being able to say hi to them. It's a great feeling. 


I've found that the best way to make new friends is just to be myself. I don't know if everyone here will like me being myself, but let's hope that those who do like it, will be my friend. I don't feel like I act any different here than I do at home...which I guess is a good thing. But I do feel more free to be more of me than I have been before. Even though me can be kindof probs annoying alot of the time (apparently I make people's ears bleed- Kris), I hope that people don't mind that. I know that I don't mind when people talk alot, it makes me feel more comfortable. Also, now I'm on a rant and I have no idea what I was talking about or even where I was going with this...but it feels great to be able to be myself and that can really be whatever I want it to be. 


Well...that may potentially be brutal to read. Sorry about that. 
I just took my first college quiz. Totes aced it. Bomb. Politics - thank you Scott. 


Tomorrow I have a super busy day. Ugh. 8 am biology, 10 chapel, 11 speech, 12 politics, 3 bio lab! SO MUCH. Thankfully all I have on Thursday is just Christian Life and Thought...could potentially end up being one of my favorite classes. For sure.


We went to the first Cedarville sporting event tonight! SOCCER! holla! It was totes fun...and totes just like high school. Love it. Can't wait for more. Especially the women's vball game friday night! Go steph and kels! 


Also, I cannot wait for NFL football season. Brought out the Colt's blanket (Thanks to Kris) to sit on during the soccer game. One of my new friends Michael loves the Patriots and wouldn't even touch the blanket...but that's okay cause I wouldn't touch a Patriots blanket either. I told him we had to be on silence during Colt's and Patriots games and the whole week before and after the Colt's and Patriots play. Yes. I've got the Colt's back, no big deal. 


Well I need to go to sleep now! 
Hope you all enjoy! 
Lots of love! :)

can't think of a title.

Third day of classes are overrrr! Thank goodness. Yesterday I had Christian Life & Thought, my only class on thursdays! And it was great! I think I'm gonna love it alot. Professor Dixon reminded me of Carter Booker. But probs a little nicer and relaxed. Still love Booker. Anyways, in CLT he would do attendance and asked you to say your hometown instead of "here!" so we could see what state had the most people from. Indiana came in second! Mostly because me, Elizabeth, and Ryan were in that class. and two other girls from Indiana! Who knew?! Also, Ryan decided to blurt out that "Elizabeth dates my brother!" in front of the whole class. It was pretty funny. Then professor Dixon asked if I was "the other girlfriend" meaning Ryan's? I don't know. But he's funny. 


As Elizabeth and I skyped with some people from high school last night, I realized some things about why I'm glad I came to Cedarville. First, the person we skyped with that really made me realize some things (I won't say their name) goes to a slightly Christian college. But he/she was kindof making fun of the fact that we have chapel every day. And kept saying things that were implying that they were better than us for choosing a school where they can do what they want, but still have some Christianity in the school. But I realized I would much rather want to be at a strict Christian school rather than the other. It may suck at times, or get annoying, but I know I will be thankful for it in the long run. It makes me so glad to finallllly be at a school where mostly everyone wants to be at a school this strictly Christian. Like at Heritage, so many of the people didn't even want to be there, nor did they care about any of the Christian parts of the school. Ambrose said to me "most of the students at HCS would throw up just thinking about having to go to chapel every day." That really shows me where people's priorities are when they say that to me. I know that God is already doing so much in my heart and that makes me so excited to see where I will end up after four years of this! It's just amazing the difference when you are around people who actually want to be in this environment. I know I probably said some of that already, sorry, but it's just really amazing to me! 


Besides that, nothing really new has happened since Wednesday. Tonight is the Involvement Fair! I wanna look into Young Life! I heard it is really great! We wanna go do something off campus tonight...but not sure what.. haha. Also, I didn't have to give my speech today! And, I'm totes not nervous anymore because everyone's today was so relaxed and he didn't care. Also, he looked at the mirror in the back of the room SIXTEEN times or more in one minute. I wanna count how many times he does it in one class. You would think that a speech teacher would be good at speaking. Nope. He does not make eye contact. Just looks at the back of the room or himself in the mirror. Totes creepy. 


Also, I put up some pics of our room on my other blog! dontleavejustyet.blogspot.com check it out!


love you all!